As I was walking toward the T this morning on my way to work, I was thinking of how extremely irritated I get when someone says "safety deposit box". Because clearly it is a safe deposit box. It's safe. It's not safety. I especially hate it when people on tv say it. Aren't there editors who make sure that doesn't happen? I was watching an episode of Eureka and they were all saying "safety deposit box" and I wanted to punch my iPad.
So, as I was thinking this, I passed by one of the many churches on College Avenue and I saw at the top of their stairs a person curled into the fetal position, sleeping, under some thin blankets and a jacket.
And then I wanted to punch myself in the face. Because I was spending mental energy on safety deposit box instead of people without a place to sleep at night. And I am sorry about that.
It's not that my problems or concerns are invalid. Problems are relative. Just because I have a job and a place to live and my health does not mean that I don't have problems. Its just that people saying "safety deposit box" isn't an actual problem and I need to get over stuff like that. It's hard for me. That's just my personality.
SEMI-RELATED TO STUFF BEING RELATIVE:
I've heard lots of people say (on tv and in real life) that thinking of the enormity and infinite-ness of the universe makes them feel small - like a speck.
I have never ever felt that way. Though I understand in concept how the vastness of it all can make a person feel like they (and all of humanity) are just a blip, I can't actually see anyone really ever feeling that way about themselves. I've felt useless, I've felt alone, I've felt like after I die I will really be gone, but I have never felt small. I think this is because:
1. I am self-centered. And I suspect everyone else is too. I think of other people. I take their thoughts and feelings into account. But you know who I trust more than anyone else? Me. I am the center of things. Though, I understand completely why you would think you are the center of things. That's how this works, you see.
2. I don't have religion but I do truly believe everyone is connected to everyone and everything else. So, if I am a part of EVERYTHING, and EVERYTHING is a part of me, that is and will always be pretty huge.