Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Getting out of your own way

I went to 90 minutes of Power Yoga with A and J yesterday. I should tell you that 90 minutes of constantly flowing yoga, at 95 degrees, is a challenge. I think it would be a challenge to anyone, with any physique. This is why I do not feel bad about being rather sore today - especially in my arms. Upper body strength is something I'm trying, slowly, to cultivate.

The instructor said something that resonated with me while we were in triangle pose for about 5 breaths. He said:

Try not to think about being at peace only once this is over, otherwise you'll never be at peace because there's always another thing - and only when that ends will you be at peace, but then there's another thing. Try to just get out of your own way and be at peace now.

Yes. I have a very hard time enjoying right now because I'm always thinking about how much better things will be after this thing or that thing is over. I have been trying to work on this.

While lying on J's bed this weekend (A was printing out her boarding pass and J was in the shower and I was resting from the grueling time we spent giggling on the beach) I noticed something J had on her wall. It read:

You might as well try to enjoy right now because it's always right now

Or something very much like that. So, twice in one weekend I got the same advice. Maybe I should try to get out of my own way, and just be at peace with what's going on NOW. Maybe I can try to just enjoy NOW.

I'm getting better at this, and part of that has come from breathing into what's happening in yoga, in life. I still get needlessly worried about small details, but I'm learning to calm down and weigh the actual importance of those details. Sometimes I can just take in information without fretting over it, other times I need to bring myself back to a place of just accepting that things are the way they are. I know I should probably stick to just trying to change the things I can change.

It's hard. But I'm trying every day.


Just Another Idealist said...

Dan just finished the Eckhard Tolle book "The Power of Now." Would you like to borrow it?

die Frau said...

That's all you can do!