Friday, October 17, 2008

Two things

Thing the first: I JUST bit a clump out of the inside of my lip - so excited was I to eat naan for the second time in two days. The naan was delicious. The bloody lip part sucked.

Thing the second: Have you ever held yourself morally responsible for something you fantasized or dreamed about? A few years ago I dreamed that I chopped off my cat's head (I had to, he had some terrible disease). For days I felt guilty (note: the cat is still very much alive and loves me so much he gave me a dead mouse yesterday I am a good mom). I hadn't thought about it in so long, but it's been bugging me recently. I've tried to be practical-
Do I love the cat? Yes, so much. Would I ever chop off his head? No, blagh! So, I think I'm ok. I don't go around beheading cuddlies or anything.

Yet...

Guilt. For dreaming it.
Hmm.

2 comments:

Scarlet Lily said...

I still have horrible feelings about a dream I had years and years ago - I totally know how you feel. Also, I often feel morally ashamed of myself for some of my thoughts. Is that all those years of going to Catholic school even though I was never a Catholic???

die Frau said...

I have also had these dreams and feel the guilt because I wonder if my subconscious is trying to tell me it has evil needs that I simply quash successfully every day. Every day SO FAR....