Ugh. So, I'm trying to look on the bright side of unemployment. And it's not like I don't know that there is one, it's just that I'm not in that camp of people who is actually helped by standing in front of the mirror in the morning and saying 5 life-affirming things. It's bunk, baby.
But, I've been emailing with my former boss, a man for whom I have enormous respect, and he wrote something that I'd been thinking, and feeling guilty for thinking, and it made me feel better. Here's a portion of his email (I don't think he'll mind being quoted anonomously in my rather obscure blog):
"My days are still busy but instead of making connections and applying for jobs, I'm doing food shopping, folding laundry and cleaning refrigerators. The problem is not that I'm doing these things but that I'm enjoying it."
I have been able to do a lot of things that I couldn't (or just didn't) do before. I have developed a knack for, and love of yoga. I've gone on errands in the middle of the day when there is no traffic (and in the Boston area, there is ALWAYS traffic). I've connected with good people over long lunches, beers, giant brunches, jelly donuts, mid-day coffee. I've leaped forward in my relationship with my man - if only because I think we both know how hard some people can take setbacks, and we've both done pretty well. I've played with my cats A LOT. I've gotten someone to trade modeling work for head-shots. I've paid more attention to small details in other people's lives. I've eaten more hummus. I've slept in (occasionally, past 8am!!).
I've been able to blog more. Maybe not a lot of quality content, but still. There are things. Some good things, that when I am on the other side of this situation, I'll be able to look at them and say that I was happy I had the opportunity to do. Feel free to remind me of this.
I went to the unemployment office today to ask some questions. They were busy, of course. But they stressed the importance of not giving up, which I thought was nice. They weren't sullen government employees who don't look you in the eye or care what you want. I bet they see a lot of desperate people. Kudos to them for remaining compassionate.